king

10.16.22

so a lil raw ramble inspired by

hormonal build up

heartbreak for the divine feminine

rage against patriarchy

and a favorite song.

this song, King by Florence and the Machines, specifically speaks to my resistance to labels

and the confinement of control that stifles my free spirit

and the ills of the polarity of being born to mother + nurture

myself,
kind boys into the wild
humans back to their bods
projects
creativity

all a big, big part of my purpose that I ADORE, creating friction against my stand in your power energy + show the fuck up for yourself.

no one sat me down or stood me up to say the world is full of shit + chaos,

it’s all around and will continue to permeate and you, my dear

you are part of it

and not looking at it

or not seeing it doesn’t make it not exist.

AND and this world is equally full of beauty + grace and you are that too.

the polarity of light and dark.

i walked, sometimes ran, often hid from life

bc i wasn’t aware that both were allowed to live

let alone live in me.

i had a false positive ideal that it’s the outside’s opinion of a made up world that’s important and standard.

a chasing of the way things are “supposed to be”.

i didn’t even have my own thoughts

or for sure my own knowings bc it was never explained to me what that even meant

and this life didn’t at all feel beautiful

or really FEEL anything at all

bc i had escaped so far from myself to show up to the comfort that lived everywhere else but inside me.

so i stand myself up now, rooted and open.

again and again

and invite anyone else who needs to do the same.

we have to see both.

to know both are alive while knowing that light,

our light

is our natural and birth given state.

we are born holy

and whole

goddamn beams of light.

that’s what we are

just as we are

and just as we want to be.

and yes it’s a tough road sometimes

to keep showing up shimmering our own special light when the space around is swirling in every other direction

or stuck in stand still

or not used to it

or maybe simply unaware that it’s even possible

to “be you”, freely

and yet we must.

see the shittiness and keep rooted in alignment so we can illuminate what feels important and most in integrity for our spirit but also so we can attract more of what the world needs,

fiery light beings of beauty and grace

ease and vulnerability

support and badassery.

this song reminds me of the sovereignty of spirit within me.

stripped away of every title I’ve been given. wide open and raw.

i am whole and most powerful in that light even thru my darkness.

not quite done…

ritual … this celebration of purpose <3