not quite done…

10.20.22

i did a long ass raw ramble that didn’t feel quite complete below is a chapter two ;) and what it really brought to surface after the free writing release …

the song makes me feel alive bc it reminds me how much anger is raw inside of me. and that feels good bc it shows me how passion lives in me too about the injustice in the world, specifically now, how the feminine still gets a bad shake and how patriarchy still dominates. and before you come at me, i don’t hate men. and it’s not simply a gender issue. we all have masculine and feminine energy within us and I am here on this planet to begin to merge and balance and bring life to both. not suppress one or the other. and anyway, I have been supported and lifted well by some divine masculinity in my life and bc of that I’m more infuriated that other women all around the world aren’t allowed the same. i am not free to fully be raw and real until all women are truly allowed to simply be. it’s so obvious that the patriarchy is simply terrified of women so instead of leaning into something that could save them, like nursing and nurturing that wound, it controls and tries to conquer, shut down and shame. it’s gross. and the opposite of sexy, IMO. but holy shit it fires me up. not sure what to do with all that energy except to say this, it’s ok to feel it. to let it be alive and guide me to how I am meant to show up to the world. and to keep allowing release thru music and dance and words and kindness and vulnerability and support. and oh my god i hope others keep digging into their their catharsises (sp?!?!) too and we keep showing up for each other this way.

this song reminds me of the sovereignty of spirit within me.

stripped away of every title I’ve been given. wide open and raw.

i am whole and most powerful in that light even thru my darkness.

authenticity + connection

king