a teenager today.
a teenager today.
hopeful to get some words out.
my body is currently resisting all major feels as i know that the next deep breath is gonna open the flood gates pretty wide with all that’s goin on ‘round here. and even tho i am trained in this shit, the emotion behind it all seems a lil extra big. bc you know, the love is so ducking big.
i pulled this picture up and immediately the song, Joy of My Life swooped through my bod. i don’t even know it that well so i had to look it up and well, guessing this is why …
“first time that I saw you
mmm, you took my breath away
might not get to Heaven
but I walked with the angels that day”
this child of mine gives me so much life. truly, i was a shell of a human {functioning + decent but a superficial shell}, until he came along. it was the first time i felt this otherworldly deep connectedness and the first time i took an inward reflection that had such lasting impact … we gotta fully show up, juju, and show up well for this ride.
we all deserve it.
and this come-back-to-life journey was born.
this boy has
charmed + humored + challenged me in ways that i cherish
every.
single.
day.
even on the grittier days, i can not look at that face and not feel the warmth his life brings to the world. he too is special and connected and independent with that kind + caring and growing + impressionable heart.
we are so blessed he’s our lesson.
i don’t know if anyone else will get it and that is ok, but it feels serendipitous and important that on his 13th birthday, a pretty big milestone in his life and ours, i am heading into my next big life adventure too. a full circle moment that I had not thought about until now. his birth started this whole growth evolution for me and 13 years later, i am taking one of the biggest leaps of faith in my/our healing journey thanks to the love he brought me back to and the amazing support that our family has built.
“did I tell you, baby
you are the joy of my life
did I tell you, baby
you are the joy of my life”
may your journeys be as uplifting and inspiring as the light you deliver us, MRM. we love you so very big.
moore family of 4, complete.
