peace + contentment.

i heard a clip of Brene B recently saying how we are a society trying to dress rehearse tragedy and beat vulnerability to the punch … {wo}man, does that not ring so true, wowzers. i can relate to this riding the middle as to not be too disappointed if something didn’t work and just allowing a pleasant surprise when it did and Brene talks about that specific crisis being one of a fear of joy. again, hot damn, truth nugget for my journey for sure.

on Friday, i had such a lovely visit with a friend, mentor, spiritual advisor, intuitive super woman 😉 who said, and I quote (among many other powerful things) “your soul is at peace”. sigh, I teared up a bit. it is true. and felt and a far far cry from the broken spirited shell from my past. a few days later, I shared with my therapist how poignant that was for me and he said, “I’d take it a step further and say, you are content”. and again, visceral - whole body vibes. he then went on to explain the difference between peace {feeling} and contentment {way of being} which took it all next level for me. i am not sharing this in a braggadocio way, i share in celebration {bc we all could do more of that} and in invitation.

the road to peace and contentment has been the journey and will continue to be the journey. and the journey up-ticked when I decided to ask myself some hard questions specifically about joy; my lack of it and my lack of understanding of what it looked like and for sure felt like for me. if you’ve followed my journey for a bit, you might remember a few years back me posing those same questions to anyone who was listening 😉 and the truth is, for me that curiosity around joy played such a huge part of me coming into my own and appreciating life. and equally true, that curiosity of joy would not have developed if i had not been deep into a movement and breath practice that allowed me the time and space to return to my body.

i saw that international day of peace was celebrated on 9.18. how serendipitous, that that was the day i had a beautiful being look me in the heart and see my soul at peace #sigh this is the kind of ease and grace and magic that unfolds when you are heart led in the work of truly being. it absolutely does not mean that there is no struggle or life is a fucking breeze, it does mean that my feet are firmly planted and i trust myself {my people, great spirit, the universe} to see me through ♥️

may we all lean into our resources of joy and curiosity, journeying to and celebrating our well of peace and contentment 🙏

look back + be inspired.

sacred space.