a trip around the sun
or 47 {for whatever it’s worth}
I may have just had one of the most expansive years of my life.
I have dedicated myself to this practice of embodiment. leaning waaayyy in for nearly 10 solid years now with a mild curiosity the 6 before that. and it has brought new levels of connection and understanding and expansion in both my professional and personal life. something i’ve noticed that comes with embodiment and with age is wisdom. and with wisdom comes trust. and with trust comes a level of comfortability in one’s own skin that is invaluable.
here’s a lil ramblin of heart inspired by this journey; a few important nuggets that seem relative to this specific time in our lives … and no, I won’t bore you with 47 but shewee i’ve got many more ramblins if you’re ever curious ;)
self inquiry is the truest form of self care you can find. you won’t talk me off it ;) it’s the hardest. I mean it doesn’t always comfort you like a magnesium bath soak, a tasty green smoothie or a massage. and yet this exploration offers the most spaciousness to evolve I have come to find.
I am and have always been (even when making the most money i’ve personally ever seen - previous gig, y’all, yogi tho is my most enjoyable, most favorite gig ;)) a closer stretch to needing assistance should some shit go down than the opposite. and it struck me awhile back that this idea of working more hours, leaning into hustle culture for a little more money didn’t really feel like success, health or wealth to me. finding a balance in something that feels sustainable, stable, equitable and enjoyable is worth fighting for. for everyone. and adopting a more mindful approach to spending that matches what is alive in my spirit; my dollars or lack of, my energy, my time can also be more thoughtfully aligned. and although you’ve probably heard me proclaim my “era of ease” don’t for one second get that twisted with a lack of hard work ;) and|both, friends. and|both.
we have been taught a disservice, imo. one that I do believe was maybe in good intention at some point but has kept us divided (so I emphasize the maybe in the first part of that sentence.) and it’s this, that we don’t/can’t talk about religion or politics or sex. you’ve heard/felt that too, right? and now, we don’t know how to and are often under-educated in relevance and scope and differing view points and perspectives (hey, hey i said under not un and I am speaking from my own experience of needing/wanting to learn more about the world around me ) I was reminded again though this weekend that there are people who were taught/are teaching the importance of safe spaces to do this and i’m in awe and inspired and continue marching forward doing better after knowing better. and obvsies, time and place are of utmost importance as it relates to most things.
I had someone ask me recently why i’m so charged up at this time. to which I questioned “why are you not?” (that in and of itself is a wonderful self inquiry exploration!) I have so much I can say to answer this question but for the sake of time I will say this ….
love. my kids are at a pivotal age where they are learning and understanding what leadership looks like and the importance in their everyday lives and in a broader capacity too. and hot damn, I LOVE these kids so much and you know what, I love their cousins, their friends and our neighbors and their neighbors. what we teach makes a successful human needs to match what they see in the world. and what I am teaching my kids and know many others are too is that kindness and compassion and empathy and accountability (bc we do get it wrong sometimes too) are just as important as their ability to stand up in action for themselves and each other. and we are capable of embodying all of these qualities.
and part of being a true leader and neighbor and ally and friend is being able to speak up and out, lift up and out in a way that doesn’t demean or bully or cheat or abuse the power we hold. and we all hold and wield power. and maybe taking this ramble full circle 🤪 if we dive into self inquiry from time to time (we certainly don’t have to live in the inquiry, y’all, time to time) we might just find a clearer direction for how to align what’s alive in our hearts in a way that delivers safety and security and expansion to not just our own but to the wider world around us. that has been my experience and it is my continued prayer.
I am charged up bc I want them to be charged up and empowered to lead their lives from strong heart too.
as I celebrate my 47th trip around the sun, I am so grateful for the love and support and guidance I receive on the regular and my wish is that we never stop reflecting, never stop learning, never stop trusting and never stop connecting from heart.
even when we are shaking.